cash flow

I've put aside pursuits because if money.

Gone to work everyday for money.

Planned what to wear, what to eat, what to do and where to live based upon money.

What would I do if money were no longer an issue? What yardstick would I use to measure out my actions? More importantly, what possibilities would reopen for a mind no longer chained by a money clip?

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birthday

Today is my birthday! I'm hoping for a super awesome gift... I also keep thinking I'm turning 24 but I'm actuality turning 23... I'm not sure why I can't seem to remember?

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composure

I want to appear composed. Someone once told me that I have a quiet gentleness about me. Is that the same as composure?

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foodless

Omg. In 2011 I'm not eating anything. Christmas almost killed me, I swear.

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mock

Isn't it interesting how people mock things they don't understand?

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gilmore <3

Gilmore Girls brings people together.:)

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aware

I'm becoming more and mote interested in politics, international politics and economics.

I've got my eye on the UN right now.
I'm trading Sarah Palin's Going Rouge.
I'm wishing we subscribed to the newspaper.
And hoping Obama never makes it back for a second term.

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blessings

Could it be? God, I stood back to trust you and it appears that you may part the Red Sea at any moment. Thank you. Teach me more.

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loser

Biggest Loser is one of my favorite shows ever. It's probably one of the best shows American could be watching right now.

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mindful

When I watch tv I'm in THEIR moment, not mine.

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truth

gifts

I never really know what I want for Christmas until I don't get it.

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dreams...

... are hard for me. I'm naturally a dreamer but it doesn't always mix well with my other, extremely practical side.

Dreams are hard to maintain without hope. But what maintains hope? I'd like to order some of that please.

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positive

I'm a complainer, which is ironic since I CAN'T STAND people who complain about everything. So... this post will be about happy and good things. (Even though I want to complain... a lot.)

We are having pizza tonight!
Tonight starts my weekend
I've lost 2lbs this week!!!!
Tomorrow is kitten day...<3

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makeover

I've been watching What Not to Wear and I feel like my blog needs a makeover.

But I don't have time for that, I'd rather be doing other things.

I feel like I should post though.

It feels to me like blogging is dead. Most of the blogs I follow hardly update once a month. Maybe that's why I've followed the trend? Maybe I just don't feel like there is enough going on to blog about. I have a hard enough time trying to come up with what to say when people ask what I've been up to.

I'm a person who is very inspired by nature and its hard to be inspired when the world around you is mostly made of concrete. How do the people in NYC do it?

elliptical

I love my elliptical. Mostly because it's a mindless, quick, yet hard workout. Currently my elliptical is set up so that I can watch movies while working out. 45 minutes just flew by as I focused on Me & Orson Wells. Now I shall relax after a good days work and think of the delicious and filling all veggie minestrone leftovers I will have for lunch tomorrow. YUM!

ginger snaps

That's what did it. I had a fantastic day eating well and feeling well. But the Ginger Snaps took me down. The ultimate autumn cookie; with a crunchy outside and soft middle. The recipe I grew up with I made for my girls group tonight and we all loved them, (So did the husbands!). I think I ate three pounds worth *wink*. BUT now I'm about to head off on a walk with my Man so hopefully that will help balance things out. I wanted to grapple with Jillian again tonight but I've got a headache and a nice walk in the cold fall evening sounds a lot better than sweating in my living room listening to the neighbors watching NASCAR, or something akin, above me.

o.m.g.

So... I just realized that my birthday is in 2 months and 8 days...

I will be 23.

First thought: I'm almost 25 and that's half way to 30!!!

Second thought: I'm still too fat and unhealthy to be this far into my 20's!

Third thought: I should blog about this... Maybe talking about it on the internet will help me to stay focused.


So, whoever you are out there you are going to be privileged to my rantings and ramblings on the subject of health. Because what better way to get healthy than to start RIGHT NOW?

Goals:
Lose 5lbs by Christmas (small goals are easier to achieve)
Cut my sugar intake WAY down. I already eliminated soda pop back in July so that's handy.
Concentrate on healthy sized portions of food.
Work out three times a week at least.

YAY! Off to a good start. I'll let you know how tomorrow goes... Right now I have to go scrub my kitchen floor.

the most wonderful time... of the year!

Autumn is my most favorite time of the year. It always puts me in an upbeat mood. Sadly, Missouri is ruining that natural high with highs in the 80's or so everyday. Yuck.

I've been trying to put myself in a crisp-leaves-to-walk-through kind of mood by burning Hazelnut Cream and Mulled Cider candles from Wal-Mart, baking chocolate chip pumpkin muffins, making soup and grilled cheese for dinner when I can, putting out my meager supply of fall decorations and watching Gilmore Girls.

If things here in the south (again, yuck), don't start looking up soon I may be forced to turn the air conditioning back on just so I can wander around the house in thermals and socks.

lukewarm

Everything feels lukewarm right now. My job, my life, my activities and my friends. I miss looking forward to things. Getting REALLY excited about things. Having a purpose to the things I'm doing.

I'm not serving anywhere. Not volunteering with a youth group, a church, homeless ministries. NOTHING. All through high school and college I looked forward to the day that my time would be my own. When I could read all the books I wanted, spend all the time at home I wanted, watching all the movies I wanted, but here is the big surprise:

Being selfish and laying around doing nothing, sucks.

I feel pointless. Useless. And boring.

I want to get up and jump back into life but I'm not even sure how...?