crawling

I injured my knee about two days ago so I've spent the past few days on the couch or crawling/scooting around the apartment. I've been trying to decide if I should put my backpack on so I can carry things from room to room with me... It's been an exciting time.

Thus far I've read three books, watched almost an entire season and a half of Gilmore Girls, a French movie, eaten three biscotti and kept touch with the outside world via texting, phone calls and FB.

I'm sick of living on the couch and I can't wait until I can walk again!!!!

Any prayers would be happily coveted because I'm also trying to recover before Friday as we have a wedding to go to.

will possess your heart

I love Death Cab For Cutie.

I forget how much music used to shape my life. After spending some time growing up it seems that music has been crowded out of my life and I'm not sure how. But I'm setting a place at the table for it again.

Maybe I should play my guitar again? I think I stopped because it was hard.

Music is mystical, a realm of it's own. You can almost swim in it.

today i...

• got a haircut
• cleaned the bathroom
• did the dishes
• vacuumed the house
• spent 40 minutes on the elliptical
• returned a shirt
• cashed a check
• watched WAY too many episodes of Gilmore Girls
• talked to my bank
• ate a salad
• hung two pictures
• wrote a thank you note

Next I need to...

• make some blueberry muffins. I love summer with all it's fresh fruit!

losing it

That's it! I'm tired of trying and trying to lose weight!

I lose a little here and it comes back over there.

I really, REALLY wish I had a fun group type thing like a Weight Watchers - but free - to keep me inspired and on track. I'm tired of working on it alone! Every time someone whines about their weight I invite them to join me so we can work together and about 3 minutes later they are over it for one reason or another.

Fail.

Are there no other dedicated people out there!?

Well, on a happy note P and I have decided to give up soda pop for the rest of the year. At the first threat of no more delicious Dewiness my taste buds wept a little but after they got used to the idea they jumped on board to help. They've promised to stop craving things that are bad for them... we shall see if they hold up their end of the deal.

Susan B. Anthony

I've recently been engrossed in a biography about Susan B. Anthony.

I was walking through the library picking up easy-to-reads for work when I told myself I needed to read a bio. I needed to pick someone I wouldn't normally read about.

I noticed a book of medium thickness about Ms. Anthony so I took it home.

Consuming the efforts and injustice of the woman's rights movement has been mind altering.

Married women were legally declared dead by law.

Women coudln't hold property or travel by themselves.

They had no power to vote,

Thus no power to change things.

Classed legally with idiots, lunatics and criminals...

And the majority of people thought there wasn't a need for change.
Even many woman thought Anthony was crazy to want change.

Its been fantastic to read this and get a glimpse into the gaining of all the freedoms I assume are my right.

I don't agree with where feminism led to but I firmly believe in where it began,

Susan B Anthony is now one of my heroes.

summer

I wish summer was still fun like when I was in high school.

Summer camps

No school work

Trips to the pool 

Popsicles and juice boxes

Summer now is nowhere close to awesome:

Heat heat and more heat

work work and more work

No friends nearby

No family

No juice boxes

I'm having a really bad day today, can you tell?

cook bake clean

I've gotta tell you,

I'm an old fashioned girl sometimes.

I would love to stay home all day baking, cleaning, sewing, cookings... pretty much doing the typical "housewifely" things.

Before you assume I've never heard of feminism I'll tell you that I agree with the ideals that started the feminism movement but today I think many that cry "feminism" have just found a new way to throw a tantrum when they don't get what they think they want.

Anyway, I've recently been going through a cookbook I got for Christmas and I want to spend all day just cooking through it, but alas, I do have a job.

It's been fun to experiment more with cooking as of late. 

After getting married I finally have more time to devote to becoming an AMAZING COOK, because that is my current goal.

That and dropping some poundage.

You wouldn't necessarily put those two together but they do a fairly nice waltz with one another.

sushi detox

Body Detox Day 1

I visited Iowa last week and ate too much crap. P and I have been trying to be healthier anyway so I thought I'd write about it.

Today we decided on homemade sushi.

We need to make a meal plan and I had the day off and the time so sushi is the choice for tonight.

tamago egg

rice

pickle

avocado

and...

BACON.

Best sushi ever! YUM!

Can't wait for dinner

$$$

Dirty, germ infested, crumpled piece of paper;

Money.

I think we all have a love/hate relationship with the green back.

 I've been so angry about it I'm ready to get up and leave, 

so happy I've wanted to dance around the room,

so worried that I couldn't sleep at night.

That's the kind of power we give money.

It's our security blanket,

the instigator of the worst fights

a murderer

a thief

I've decided that some things are worth more than money

it's surprisingly difficult, and I'm not proud of that

But I can't give that kind of devotion and attention to an inanimate object

book

Do you know how hard it is to find a good book?

One that keeps you going and going

Pages turning and turning 

And no matter how happy the ending is you cry because you have finished it.

Mostly there are the books where the author threw together words, trying to sound witty and intellectual (Candace Bushnell *cough cough*), failing, yet managing to make readers wonder how this author ever got something published in the first place?
(Now, don't blame it on Kindle)

I hope my book isn't like that.

Some day when I get it published I hope people cry at the end and desperately search for a tacky advertisment in the back that heralds the coming of a second volume.
(look in vain for there will be none)

too many movies

I wanted life to slow down after the wedding and it has

I love coming home each night to eat dinner and hang out with my husband

But I'm feeling lame because lately all we've done is sat around watching Netflix and taking the occasional walk

I'm not sure what else to do though, he works odd hours and there isn't much to do in town

What should we do besides watching movies and making Walmart runs?

Oh! I did get my hair cut today and its super cute! :)

liar liar

She doesn't think its wrong to lie

I think lying is wrong

Its her life

Its my life

But when it effects the lives of others I think I need to do something.

Right?

I think I need to tattle but I'm afraid its going to come back to bite me in the butt.

Ouch...

making it easier

Meet my new best friend:

http://www.myfitnesspal.com/

(vivideloquence :: look me up! Let's be friends.)

Its convenient, easy to navigate, v. simple...

I see a long-term relationship in our future.

gifted

I'm starting to understand my emptiness

I have a gift

and I'm not using it.

Q. what is my gift?

I'm not making a difference

I'm not learning about God

or people

I'm learning about me

me

me

me

me is not enough

things be different now

Ways this summer is different than the last:

I'm married

Have a good job instead of working nights at IHOP

AIR CONDITIONING! (important staple of life in MO)

I'm paying off school debt. Being debt-free isn't too far away

I will be writing again soon. I WILL. (Hold me to that!)

One of my closest friends will be in another country :,(

I weigh less than I did and the number  is still dropping!

I'm learning how to make colorful, fun, healthy food for everyday

My stress level is leveling off

Its going to be lovely.

rockies

Every time I'm in Colorado I'm always amazed at how much there is to do.

hiking, swimming, walking, rafting...

In MO my main activity is avoiding the humidity,

otherwise I would resemble Farrah Fawcett...

  except worse, my hair would curl towards my face, probably to cover it.

frenchy

I now have a night cream!

Oo la la.

I feel so French,

and my skin is like silk!

(or a fine bamboo/cotten blend)

my life...

is so beautiful

I thought it was about time to show my more positive side

the next four days before I marry my sweetheart

will be fabulous

new phone, new life

Its 7 days until we get married

and i feel like life is falling apart.

Everything has been going wrong

and I'm so nervous that I'm not sleeping

Sigh

I tried to quote scripture this morning

and ended up quoting Shakespeare instead

that's how messed up my mind is right now

But I have my Man and a fairy godmother

they are keeping me semi-sane

A week and 2 days from today it will all be over

We will be heading to the Mountains

and stress will be forgotten

Its been 8 months since my life was about

something other than getting married

I'm looking forward to simplicity again

No details that MUST get done

no set time I have to get home by

I can just fall asleep reading

in our bed.

bliss.

i love him

8 days until the wedding list

1. strangle minister for forgetting he cant do the wedding

2. strangle office manager for telling me 11 days before that we cannot use the rooms we want

3. take 10 deep breaths

4. get counseling for pent up rage & stress

5. have a Big Bang Theory marathon in my "spare time" (spare time, ha ha)

6. eat

7. try and get all details to all the people who need them

8. kiss my Baby, oh wait, can't kiss again until after I Do

9. go to birthday party

10. live in two places at once

11. crack up

12. sleep sleep sleep