the sum of your choices

I didn't make very good choices today.

But tomorrow is a new day!

makeover

bah! My hair needs a makeover! I want to chop it, grow it, dye it, curl it... what shall I do...? I just can't make up my mind!

the almighty dollar

I'm sick to death of money. I hate it. Every thin green-gray dollar I pinch between my fingers. The obsessive checking of the account to make sure there is enough. The USBank that screws you over. The stressful desperation that settles over everyday life.

I hate you money. If you were a living thing, I would hunt you down and make you extinct.

destructive

I am sick and tired of this. Again and again and again. I want to...

Swear at the top of my lungs.
Drive into a wall.
Throw glass plates on the floor.
Say all the dark things in my head.
Kick a window.
Rip.
Smash a mirror.
Pierce where it hurts.

Curl up.
Cry.

Feels a lot like 2 1/2 years ago.

ring

So that boy of mine... he gave me a ring...

Me + Everything = Happy.

good advice

I was reading a blog this morning and ran across this advice:

When you get married do what you've been doing, as in, be the person you were before marriage. People sometimes think marriage is a green light to change. You think, 'Now I should buy a house, have babies, cook more at home, let myself go...' But you got married because you liked each other. So if you went out before, go out now. If you had “ladies” night and “boys” night before, have it now. And take care of yourself! You want to be a woman your husband can brag about, and more importantly, you want to be a woman *you* can brag about.

I really liked that. I thought it was cute, and very wise.

tuesday at 11:58

I found out that it is now supposed to rain for the rest of the week. This is one of the best things I have heard all day! Very happy.

There is something in the air right now... Not sure what it is, (maybe its fall?), but it makes me want to read something whimsical and fun. So I'll be starting the Harry Potter series again once I finish my current book. Patrick is going to read them with me since he has never read them before (!). I really think he will enjoy them.

I'm off to work tomorrow. I've got the old dread-of-going-to-work feeling in my gut each time I remember that I'm to go to work but then I remind myself over and over again that for once in my life I don't hate my job. God's been pretty cool to hook me up the way He has. Thank you very much.

autumn

I am extremely excited for the coming of fall. Soft scarves to wrap around my neck; crisp leaves to trample underfoot; chill afternoons perfect for taking walks; football games to attend with warm hot dogs in cold hands; bonfires to sit by with marshmallows expanding on outstretched sticks. Fall is my absolute favorite time of the entire year. Hands down-with light gloves on, of course!

attitude

Attitude is everything. You can have more fun with the right attitude and you can accomplish so much more.

over start

Sometimes I really underestimate people. I assume, or rely on my past experiences with them.

We don't all play with our hands showing. Some of us play with our cards against the chest. The cards-against-the-chesters, they usually have a reason. There are so many reasons for why people do what they do.

I wish I knew yours.

I use psychology and I analyze all of the time. Why haven't I ever given you the benefit of the doubt? Maybe because I remember too much... or not enough, as it may be.

Hmm...