lukewarm

Everything feels lukewarm right now. My job, my life, my activities and my friends. I miss looking forward to things. Getting REALLY excited about things. Having a purpose to the things I'm doing.

I'm not serving anywhere. Not volunteering with a youth group, a church, homeless ministries. NOTHING. All through high school and college I looked forward to the day that my time would be my own. When I could read all the books I wanted, spend all the time at home I wanted, watching all the movies I wanted, but here is the big surprise:

Being selfish and laying around doing nothing, sucks.

I feel pointless. Useless. And boring.

I want to get up and jump back into life but I'm not even sure how...?